Journal Entry April 9th 12:43 AM

Well it has been a very long time since I've kept a journal or diary, abut I think now may be a good time to start again. An aweful lot of things in my life are changing and it helps me keep calm and sort things out when I write about stuff. I will be graduating from Grand Valley State University with a Bachelor's Degree in International Relations in 22 days. Within a few days of graduation I will be moving out of my apartment (which I have lived in for the last 3 years). I will be temporarily moving back to my parents' house. However, this will be a short-term move because in 79 days I will be in Barcelona, Spain beginning the newest and greatest adventure of my life so far. I am going to take a one-month class to get certified to teach English as a foreign language (TEFL) and search for a job in Spain for the next year. This is by far the most spontaneous event of my life, to date.

My grandma worries about me being kidnapped or killed, while my grandpa says the Spanish men will all fall in love with me. My father loves the idea (I think this is partly because it is something he would love to do). My mother hasn't said much on the matter, which is strange because we are quite close. My sisters each have different opinions; one doesn't really care, one wishes me well and says it will be a great adventure (I think she, like Dad wants to go), and the last selfishly wants me to stay but understands that it is something I need to do. My brothers' opinions I cannot say; one refuses to speak to the family, while the other is quite busy trying to pull his own life together.

And I guess that leaves me.... How do I feel about it all?
I feel it's happening so fast. The real world is calling. I want to greet adventure with open arms. However, I also want to stay a child forever. I want to run and hide in my room. The whole idea is so wonderfully terrifying that I can't really wrap my head around it. In under 3 months I will be in Spain, alone, taking life as it comes!