Journal Entry April 18th 12:31 AM

So I know I wrote once already today but I feel like I didn't say everything. It's funny how almost everything I write in this journal is about Spain and my worries and my excitement, but I really don't talk about it. I guess that's pretty normal for me because I like to help other people with their problems but every now and then I get a selfish streak and wish someone would care about my problems. Maybe it's my fault for putting others first but I really can't be any other way, I guess it's just who I am. Maybe since no one else really seems to care that's why I've tried to make myself as emotionally independent as possible. I've heard the saying, "The only person you can rely on is yourself," and I always thought it was the words of a cold, bitter soul. Now I've realized maybe that soul was just tired of being used. In the words of a famous song,"We All Need Somebody to Lean On."